When Spring Came Calling...

Not in many instances will you see yourself smiling from the heart, eat much with a free mind, sleep soundly without worries, wake up with a smiling face, so on and so forth. Such times come occasionally, lasts for sometime, most for a day, or two, then fades off, then our minds automatically start working out with its own problems and tensions. That too in today’s world where-in you need to be extra cautious in anything you come across, you don’t find that sort of a pleasant mind or a pleasant and pleasing self often.

I have had that divine feeling twice in my life. First, on June 1^st, 2006, 11.34 am. Right from that moment, I found myself on the clouds. Suddenly, all the burden in my heart started to ebb, they made their exit from my body in the form of tears. They filled up my eyes. I felt I was the happiest man in the world. Then I realized, the “Spring” in my life had come around. I enjoyed it for 23.5 hrs, only to see the first “Spring Season” in my life come to an abrupt end at 11.15 am, June 2^nd, 2006.

Right from that moment, life started to take a new turn. New problems, new disturbances, something I had never felt before. Then came a period of THE WORST SUMMER in my life. I din’t know how to cool myself off, mentally. Not even a single day passed by without feeling heavy at heart, without tossing and turning on the bed, without waking up with a sluggy look.
When I was wondering how long this is going to continue, came September. I got acquainted to two girls. One is Viji, about whom I mentioned in my previous post. The other is Sowgandhi (let me call her ‘sow’ – this is how I love to cal her). I din’t mention about her in the previous post, because she is a bit different from other friends. So, I decided to dedicate this post to her.

She, coupled with Viji, made the “Spring” revisit my life. Life without these both, would have been as dry as the Sahara till date. This time, the spring lasted for some 150 days, between September 2006 and January 2007.

Those were the days when I found myself on the clouds again. The worries in my heart came out of my body, this time, not as tears, but as words. I began to do something I never did, share my sorrows to another person. I was of the perception, that I shouldn’t share anything that worries me, rather I’d share something that made me happy.

When I saw Sow for the first time, I hardly looked at her face, as I was busy talking to Viji. But from the second time when we met again in the temple “Theppam”, I had a chance to talk to her for a few minutes. It started then. The blooming of a new friendship, which I thought would be as same as others – just one more person into my small friends’ circle.

But when things started to unwrap, I had the instinct to share everything with Sow. To be very frank, she has spent a whole lot of time and mind into my issues, more than what I spent.

Initially, I was an introvert, mum, moody, not caring much about people, minding my own business, like a robot switched on. Only after Sow came into my life did I realize the real kind of affection between friends, and how it feels like to talk to more people, and I started to make new friends only after Sow’s entry.

We have spent a great deal of time together, be it at Viji’s home, or through SMS (That’s how we used to spend most of the day), she is cool to be with. The way she listened to all my problems, the way she made assertions, the way she told me solutions, kindled in me, the urge to listen to others’ problems and try lending a helping hand.

In fact, Sow worried more about me than I did myself, and she would always be available for a solution. Any worry, she would be my inevitable destination.

The kind of friendship I shared with her, I would say, was something new. Sow made me find a new meaning to a boy-girl friendship – something I am unable to express in the right words. But I can say, that she’s unique. I have got the truest and the purest form of friendship for her. Happiness or sorrow, the first people to be with me would be viji and sow. Next only to parents, viji and sow were my only sources of happiness during this “Spring Season”, and the happiness and support they gave me was enormous.

Then came January, when the friendship between Sow and me was at the peak. I don’t know if they call it “Dhrishti”, but “A Dry Summer” knocked my doors all of a sudden, and slowly it’s driving the “Spring” away. A series of failed expectations, not-so-good words (evidently from my side), and stuff are trying hard to make days tougher for me.

To be very frank, in these days of our friendship, Sow has been the source, and I have been the destination, for all the goodies. For sorrows, it’s the other way around. One of the first things I’d ask if God stands in front of me, is to make me more tolerant, and gimme enough brain to keep a good friend, and give me a chance to be with such a friend as long as I’m in this world and give her two times as much happiness she ‘s given me.

Viji and sow – when u read this, i’d like to tell you, that if not for you both, it would have taken me hundred times more time to get out of all the mess I had faced. Everybody may get friends like you both, but nobody would value both of you as much as I do!